Sunday, January 01, 2006
SHIFTEDonly the first 10 people who ask me for the new one will get it.
11:12:00 pm
Reflections are in order, but I'm too tired. Short and sweet and to the point. Time to stop moping around. Approximately one year. STOP. I should do something instead of sitting around waiting for something to happen.
I don't think anyone's looking forward to 2006 exactly. EURGH very soon it's back to the 8-11 mugging plan.
I kept true to my resolution. My first completed one! I stayed sane and quit partying! SAY YAY!
Furla Lovers is on 30% discount. But Steph's mum slyly bought it for her already. The #1 rule of femaledom is never ever to get the same thing as your friend, however okay they might say it is. Because it really is not.
2 more days. I don't want to go back. I really kind of dislike Parkway.
I think a LAST LAST LAST mahjong session is in order. To perk things up. After all, I don't think we'll be playing anymore for the next 11 months.
2:23:00 am
Friday, December 30, 2005
I've just been sent some GREAT GREAT GREAT news. This is undoubtedly the BESTESTESTEST timetable I've had for eons. Even better than secondary school!
That was before I saw 43 and 64's timetable. EURGH. I have to wait for BSR on Tuesday for 3 bloody hours before Gary Chan. Gary Chan starts at 430. I end at 1245. They end at 340. ))))): YUCKS.
By the way, my Shepherd's Pie was another GREAT hit today. It took me 4 hours. I brought it to F's house and her dad said it was VERY VERY VERY NICE. F said it was nice too! D secretly thinks that it's very nice but he adamently refused to admit it!
I'm having Pre( anti ) -School syndromes. Strangely, it includes Sniffing.
The only thing that's making me look forward to school is carrying my new bag and wearing my new dunks.
11:17:00 pm
Thursday, December 29, 2005
I was analysing D's sister's blog for him and I realised that actually we really ought to give our sisters more credit than what they get. Somehow everyone around me harbours the same attitudes towards our sisters. Yes, sisters in particular, I have no idea why. I told Zirui today, " Stop looking down on your sister! " and I realised I myself was guilty of that very crime. I somehow saw the situation between me and my sister through D and Sister. It was a very genuine reflection. As I read on, I realised with laden guilt that actually.. our sisters like us alot. All they ever wanted was recognition and acceptance from us and we couldn't even give them that. Instead, we condemn them and sometimes, make them think that they'r near worthless. But actually, what they don't realise are our well-concealed, good intentions. For example, both D and I are very afraid that our sisters will be influenced and turn into LLs. Hence we take very drastic measures within all our means to prevent that from happening. For example, D's sister complains that he doesn't let her buy her BILLABONG skirt because BILLABONG's too LL; and I condemn some of my sister's actions when I think it's leading her straight to the LianLian path. But perhaps and may I say with extreme certainty that these measures are TOO harsh and slowly but surely, they begin to resent our authority.
I don't really dislike my sister you know. She gets on my nerves sometimes, maybe too many times. But after all, blood runs much thicker than water. I don't think anyone would really hate their own sisters. It's beyond siblinghood. Deep down somewhere, we all love our family members, as shabbily they treat us, or as shallow our relationship might be.
Sorry to all the sisters out there. We really mean well, even though we might not show it. Really, straight from the heart.
I think I ought to feel ashamed that I had to see all these through Daryl's sister's blog. Thanks Desiree.
I hope my own sister sees this. Because this is meant for you.
11:20:00 pm
I have this urge to spend more time with DAGGERS because the holidays are ending in just 4 and we probably won't meet up for the next few months. ))))): Eurgh, this sucks.
I feel like just hanging out at Flor's house until next Tuesday. Playing mahjong to earn $$$ to get my Furla Lovers.
My parents are very hip and cool, they'r going for midnight karaoke you know. By the way, it's Handsome Daddy's birthday today! Heart you very much! No matter how old you are, you'll still be very handsome heehee.
PF got rather agitated while talking about parents, married adults in general. " they stop doing things to make them love each other more " quote and unquote Mr Yong. He thinks it's a " curse of marriage " ! That day while I was walking home I suddenly felt like doing something for my dad and mum. I want to arrange some sort of candlelight dinner for them for their wedding anniversary next year! I'll discuss with my sisters. They deserve it so much because they'r the bestest parents anyone can have.
Birdie and I were discussing about school. I think I'll be quite sad if Pok leaves. He really is quite funny, despite not being in school most of the time, and intimidating the rest of the school when he is. He kept me company when I was sitting in the canteen alone one day!
You can't say I'm fickle because actually I'm just downright loyal;
8:51:00 pm
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
I miss my old racing goggles! I kept thinking I used to swim faster with the old ones when I was swimming with the new ones just now. I like Arena better than Speedo.
The new haircut was quite horrible at first. Then I flipped it over and it became nice. I'm that good, yes. I'm beginning to like short bangs.
I'm baking Shepherd's Pie tomorrow. Friday people, lucky you! We have a new oven that is very cool. You can cook, grill, toast, bake and fry with it. I can try out so many new recipes now! :D
I've always thought I was the worst person to be at loggerheads with, because if there's one thing I do best, it's ignoring people. I have this ability to act as if you were non-existent even though you might be just 2 inches away from me. Even me myself find this indifference callous, it's an extremely shabby way to treat people. Yet I can't help it if you forced me to do this. Some people really bring out the bitch in me.
My approach in life is very simple. If you'r nice to me, I'll be nice to you. I'm very nice to people I like. If you'r not, I'm sorry but
I'm not a Saint.
11:46:00 pm
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Vee was questioning my loyalties regarding soccer and ManU sometime ago. I used to like watching them play but truth is, I think I liked the company much much more. Somehow watching them with company seems so exciting while watching alone makes me fall asleep in 15 minutes. I haven't caught a single match for the whole of this year. I miss the late night- early morning matches. The crazy times when we would watch till 5 and go for school.
Please cheer up Vee, you'll get through this soon, I promise. I'll always be here for anything, anytime, always for you. <3
EURGH. I want the Furla Lovers Medium wallet. I hope $$$ flocks to me.
4:11:00 pm
STEPH AND I ARE AT RACH'S HOUSE!
helllloooooo!!!! ( rach )
We are TOO spontaneous for our own good. 11.30 pm at Suntec City and one sentence from RT and we were on the cab to Shelford Road.
" Eh, my house got nobody today. "
HAHAHAHAH I LOVE NICKYS! :DDDDD
12:06:00 am
Monday, December 26, 2005
I had a long talk with my mum and dad, discussing about all the friends they had and how we used to do those 7 car trips to Malaysia when we were young and ignorant. We would switch cars at pit stops and laugh and giggle all the way to Penang or something, which was really crazy when you think about it because all our dads had to drive non-stop for 10 hours. We would go to beach resorts, sit on the banana boats, swim everyday and play and play and play. But good things don't last and because of one asshole everything came to an end. Eurgh. I hate men who have affairs I hope all of you get STDs.
Hence I've made a resolution to make an effort to keep up with friends. Not talking about Goldens, those are a must. People like Beatrice Mok, I really like her alot she's the funniest girl on Earth. David, she's the only David I recognise, no matter how many other Davids I know. It's a pity Crystal has drifted so far though. Sab, Rina, Becks, Alex and gang! We used to hang out so often last time. SSG! And the so many other seasonal friends.
However, with time, the small gap would have amounted into a huge gaping hole that's virtually impossible to bridge.
Even JMG drifted during the holidays. Okay, I guess it's safe for me to say I was the one who drifted from the rest. Oh well, sorry okay! We'll hang out again when school reopens. I have this conception that holidays are meant for catching up with people you don't meet often during school days.
Only one more week before it's back to hanging out at Parkway. I'm all set for school. I have the bags and shoes ( bought new dunks! ) and stationeries ready. All that's lacking is homework to be done.
Beatrice Mok tells me this blog is NOT private at all and many people know about it. HELLO, all you assholes if I did not tell you about this personally please show yourselves the way out because it's not for you to peruse at your leisure. I think it's time to shift. EURGH. So troublesome.
12:27:00 am
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Because it's Christmas and it's the time for truths and nothing but pure holy truth.
Being honest requires integrity, morality and so much more. Many a times, hiding behind a facade and telling lies would be a much easier way out. And yet, there are times when even the truth wouldn't help. Reality checks hurt the most, because the moment you fall from high-flying fantasies to cold hard truth, you realise that everything was just a mirage and it was never there. It's hard to tell the truth. It requires lots of moral fibre and courage. People fear telling the truth mainly because they don't know what is going to and what will happen after others know the truth. So they hide and they hide. And they live in their guilty conscience, fearing that one day others will know the truths that they try so hard to conceal.
Whether you agree or not, I sincerely think I've become a better person. I'm learning to give and not always to take. Learning to accept, and not to force. Learning to compromise, and not try to fight my way through. And most importantly, learning not to take things for granted.
I used to think everything comes naturally to me, all the good stuff. I never once appreciated what was given, I just took it all in my stride. Since young, everything came easily to me and it was all as natural as ABC. But I learned it the hard way and I'll never forget this lesson. For my mistake, I will wait. I will wait very patiently because I believe in karma.
Sometimes I feel very bad about myself because I know what a conceited and arrogant snob I've grown into in the 4 years in St Nics. St Nics is a wonderful place, the school that we spent the best 4 years of our lives in. However, the school politics that so mercilessly reign in our world has cultivated a flaw in all our characters. We think ourselves as superior and look down on all other lowly beings. Not exactly the equality in our idealistic society. But this phenomenon is prevalent everywhere and it will always be. There's nothing you can do to change it and nothing we can really do to change ourselves. Sad, but there it is.
This sounds strangely like an expository piece. I like to write. I wouldn't mind being a writer next time.
D, I want to watch the Family Stone!
12:10:00 am