You can't say I'm fickle because actually I'm just downright loyal;

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

my love is vengeance, that's never free;

Some things were just never meant to be.

I'm feeling sore and stupid. I can't believe I just spent 2 hours sewing in a stupid drawstring.

I don't understand why must you act in such a wierd and random manner.

Only two more days before we have to part with the last connection we have with St Nics.

I'm feeling random, this is a random post.

I don't like the way you'r treating me. ):

I'm so sorry for feeling sore about it but I can beat you.

10:15:00 pm

Friday, March 25, 2005

I thought you would understand.

But apparently you don't.

THAT WAS THE WORST THING YOU COULD HAVE EVER SAID.

Tan Yupei, I miss you and your steadiness. I know you would understand, even if everyone else in the entire world didn't. I miss you friend. ):

11:29:00 pm

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Things happen. Many in fact. It's draining me out. The long talk with The Nickys had me thinking and I straightened out some thoughts. The long-standing issue is finally resolved, though I keep meeting people who look like you. Three in like two weeks is rather creepy.

Steph and Shuqi, nothing can express the loss we feel. The roots won't be the same anymore.

The evil side of human nature is slowly coming out of its skin. The politics in kayak is getting too tough to deal with. Sometimes I really wonder what people like Silent Night get from doing all these. I get very angsty when I think of how everyone is wrong about her. Only the 5 of us know her true evil self. At times like this, I really feel like pasting posters everywhere, exposing all her evil deeds. But as Platinum Friend says, sometimes it doesn't matter whether people know the truth.

The thought of returning to VJ without Steph and Shuqi turns me off. Big time.

9:28:00 pm

Friday, March 18, 2005

2am, and the rain is falling an S4fiver.0ur identity^ says:
you know sometimes.. people around you won't know the truth

2am, and the rain is falling an S4fiver.0ur identity^ says:
but what matters most is you know the truth and you've done what you think is right

THE TRUE STORY WILL MAKE YOU CRY YOUR UGLY HAIR OUT YOU STUPID COCKROACH says:
it takes a lot of grace to do that

2am, and the rain is falling an S4fiver.0ur identity^ says:
i have faith in you that you have the grace

Thanks truckloads, you'r the bestest platinum friend ever. :))

12:13:00 am

Monday, March 14, 2005

PLEASE STOP TELLING ME HOW STUPID I AM, HOW WASTED IT IS, HOW SWEET AND NICE HE WAS. BECAUSE IT IS WAS AND WAS IS A PAST TENSE WHICH MEANS IT WAS ALL IN THE PAST. AND I HATE PEOPLE WHO SHOW ME RANDOM TRACK PHOTOS ON RANDOM DAYS AND MAKE ME MOODSWING IN SUCH A RANDOM SCHOOL WITH SO MANY RANDOM PEOPLE KNOWING HIM AND TELLING ME RANDOM THINGS ABOUT HIM.

THIS IS SO RANDOM BUT I'M GETTING ANGSTY AND EMO SO I FUCKING DON'T CARE.

Opps i did it again says:
i dno it's how i dont want him in my life and somehow i still want him in my life
Opps i did it again says:
haha it's so ironic

Ivy, its a no wonder we are golden friends.

11:19:00 pm

Although you'r such a jerk sometimes, I thank you for all the joy you'v brought to my life

I don't think its just me. Everyone's so swingy and down and angsty and emo these days. When you'r just desperate to find something to put the blame on, the weather suffers all the strain. If you gave me a dollar everytime I hear this, " It's all because of the weather, its too hot!", I'd probably be as rich as Bill Gates now.

I really don't know why it keeps popping into my head these days. Up till 2 weeks ago, I really thought I was all over it. But the same old issue is back haunting me. I'm looking at the stupid picture and listening to The Reason on repeat mode for three hours all over again. What the fuck is going on, I really cannot comprehend. Sometimes I wished you were still here. I think you'v been too nice to me I can't stop comparing everyone with you. Its like if A does something relatively sweet and nice, I can't help but think, " uhh no that's not very sweet, you did nicer things for me." I should stop living in the past and acting like a weak and clingy woman.

Ah bird, Shushu, Yiling and Audrey did us proud today. They actually defeated RJ and etc. We'll get the medal just you see.

Sometimes I think I'm too emo and angsty for my own good.

I miss my pretty boy.

10:37:00 pm

Saturday, March 12, 2005

why is life such an angsty little bitch?

Life started to take a turn for the WORST ever since the results came out. My heart is too weak to take all these trauma ( too weak to elaborate ), WHY LIKE THAT?! Life sucks when you get abandoned by all your golden friends and you get denied so many times while shopping. I WANT THE BETULA BIRKENSTORK SLIPPERS.

My life sucks too much to be true. My heart bleeds for my sad and lonely life.

I need to go praying at the temple with platinum friend.

10:32:00 pm

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Correction: God is always fair. When life's a bitch, He sends someone to make you happy.

It's easy to take things and people for granted. When you'r so caught up with work, school, life in general, there just isn't enough time for you to stop, smell the roses, and appreciate what you have. Hence, the tendency to take things for granted. There are many ways in which you can take things for granted, even small little things that may seem so minute and redundant. These days we're all getting so materialistic that only substantial items can satisfy your wants. That is why I was so touched by the small little thank you from you. When you come to think of it, its really the small little things that matters.

2am, and the rain is falling says:
because i know you will always be with me ah!
2am, and the rain is falling says:
haha
2am, and the rain is falling says:
i want to say a big thank you for all the things you have done for me :D

Two sentences was all it took, to strike a chord in my heart and touch me. :))) Thanks for always being there when I need you. Dear friend, you make me so happy. :D

Besides that, I have another group of people I want to thank. That's right, the nickys.

When I was down, you all were there. When I was lonely, you all were there. When I was happy, you all were there. When I was sad, you all were there. Whenever, whatever, you all were always there.

Nothing I say can show the love I have for the four of you. ( Steph the gundu, Shushu the sly galz, Rach the nice but sly galz, Tric the ah bird )

5th of March, Nickys' Day. We'll be tOgeThEr FoRevErZZZ~~~ no matter what.

That just sounded so right. ( nicky's speak! )

NICKYS MOTTO: TO BE GRACIOUS, SLY AND WISE

11:38:00 pm

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

When life's a bitch, you can't do anything but sleep.

So the results are all out. Relief was written all over my face when I realised I had an 8 after counting fervently for 15 minutes. Two days later now, I'm not so sure I still feel the same way. So what if I can stay? It's still unsure whether Steph and Shu can. And honestly, I'll rather not if they can't. Life in VJ just won't be the same anymore without them.

Without Steph being annoying, running off while studying halfway to have secret rendevous with Skin-Infection-Gay. Without Steph being free and easy, always the last one to finish bathing. Without Steph being blur and dumb, getting lost while going chem prac.

Without Shushu being the Great Sly Master, helping us fend off cunning attacks from sly boys. Without Shushu the Greatest Actress, always so eager to act everything out. ( You be Wibly, I be Steph!) Without Shushu always there entertaining us and losing her belt without knowing it.

I dread knowing how life would be like without the both of you.

My head is spinning like a carousel out-of-control. My mood is extremely down in the pits after being stuck at home for the entire day. I wish I was there crying with you all just now.

I hate you for abandoning me when you know that I'm sick.

And I hate you for being so nice on such random days when I'm down.

To end off, I hate myself for being so weak. I should stop giving in to you and falling for all your sly tricks all over again.

9:25:00 pm