Thursday, April 28, 2005
right back where we started from;I'M SO TIRED. Fatigue is chewing me up like concentrated sulphuric acid. The past two weeks have been horrible. I'm plagued with insomnia, I can't believe I did trigo tutorials till 130 am last night. I feel even weaker than Ah Bird please. This is so not happening. We're probably not going back for St Nics sports day tomorrow. Things haven't been going my way recently.
I'm already dreading saturday's race. Say I'm pessimistic, but I just have this ominous feeling that Ah Bird and I won't make it. I can already imagine our
ready-to-cry faces on the way back to shore. ): I'm starting to think maybe it isn't a good thing to be in the second team. The pressure is overwhelming.
Oh well, I really miss talking to you my friend. ):
9:28:00 pm
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
darling, i'll never forget that one last shot;It's happening
again, and I don't think I have the energy to think about it anymore. Why should I let myself get so upset over it when you don't even care? For goodness sake, even some other random people are friendlier to me than you. I'm so tired. Since drifting from other people is my niche, I shall just let it be.
The weather was so hot, and the day was even worse. Today was probably the first time I had a sudden urge to run away from school and hide from the world. The St Nics spectators stand would be the first place I would go. I miss the view of the sunset from there.
I'm aching so much all over. I should have joined archives instead.
9:54:00 pm
Sunday, April 24, 2005
diamonds are always the best;Training was surprisingly good today. Tide was high though the water was very choppy. But Ah Bird and I have decided that we made good progress today. Had lots of fun making sandcastles with Leonard and Wilbur! The VJ imprint was rather nice actually. Too bad we didn't have a camera with us so we couldn't take a photo 0f our castle with a moat.
Met Diamond Friend ( Joshua told us titanium was lousy. ) Ivy after that. Did lots of shopping. I'm a happy girl! :D Met up with DF's gang, made too much noise in Cartel and walked for eons. Alright, I'm so tired. The movie prices are so expensive now I simply refuse to watch movies in a theatre. I secretly support piracy. HAHA.
Econs tutor wanted DESPERATELY. I'm stagnant at Demand and Supply notes, the first econs lecture of the year. I refuse to get ONE mark again for the assignment. Though it was quite amusing I thought.
12:12:00 am
Saturday, April 23, 2005
dancing in the moonlight;It was nice talking to you again. It's so queer how everything works.
It almost felt as if everything was alright again.I'm so delusional. :/
And I'm so sick of training. I have absolutely no desire to ever go near seawater again. I just wish somebody can stop all these cuts and bruises. They aren't a pretty sight you know. A very painful one actually. To both the senses and the sight. ARGH.
12:53:00 am
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
in a champagne supernova in the sky;Recently,
Sam and I have discovered newfound respect for quite alot of people. It all started with
Juice not eating meat on fridays and his skills. Today, the two teachers we hate most absurdly became the two teachers we like most. QUEER. But we still hate
Xiaohong's queerdo friend. Yucks, you'r too queer and disgusting to be true.
School is getting interesting,
Bubbles talked to me today! :D HEEHEE.
I'm a musclewoman. Even
Ka Fai was impressed by my muscles.
OH. Have I ever told you how
PF rocks to the moon and the stars and back to me? HEEHEE. Thank you truckloads for that message friend! :D I woke up suddenly at 3 am and saw it.
Guava should just stuff himself in the dustbin and die.
Keep bubbling!HAPPY SEVENTEEN STEPH CHEONG THE BIMBO! ( Pink in representation of your bimbotic ways. Nobody is allowed to call Steph a bimbo besides me okay. Steph is a cute bimbo. )
9:38:00 pm
Sunday, April 17, 2005
And the reason is you;I've been obedient for very long. I'm allowed to think about it once in awhile, no?
Who wouldn't like..
A pretty boy who said, "i think you're very pretty" the moment he came over and talked to you.A pretty boy whose embrace is so comfortable it seemed as if everything would be all right even if it was the end of the world.
A pretty boy who travelled across singapore just to accompany you to the library and fall asleep there because you refused to study alone.
A pretty boy who sends you home even though he lives in the east and you live in the west.
A pretty boy who surprises you with FAMOUS AMOS cookies because he noticed that you were pretty down that day.
A pretty boy who never fails to cheer you up even when you're in the most rotten mood ever.
A pretty boy who makes lazer dedications for you at the fountain.
A pretty boy who wakes up at 530 in the morning just to wake you up for school when he's skipping school himself.
A pretty boy who scrapes all the chilli off the stingray for you because you can't take spicy food.
A pretty boy who apologizes for failing to give you cookies even though you were the one who couldn't meet him on his birthday.
A pretty boy who went through so much your heart aches for him.
A pretty boy who is so strong despite everything that has happened.
A pretty boy who takes ugly photos of you in ugly hats and insists that they're nice and ain't ugly at all.
A pretty boy who went down to pasir ris to accompany you because you were dying of boredom. A pretty boy who messes up your hair right after you retied it.
A pretty boy who gives in and lets you cut his prized possession, his HAIR, after much whining.
A pretty boy who has such pretty hair after the hair-cutting session.
A pretty boy who talks to you everyday, regardless of rain or shine.
A pretty boy who never ever blows up at you, even when he's in the worst mood ever.
A pretty boy who can withstand all your unreasonable moodswings and even snap you out of them.
A pretty boy who gets all anxious and apolegetic when you tell him he was the one who made you angry, even when he himself didn't know what he did.
A pretty boy who has such a nice comfy couch you just feel like sleeping on it till forever.
Lastly, a pretty boy who makes you very very happy.Tell me, who wouldn't?
Ah, this was dated 3rd of July. It has been a long time since
The Reason.
On such random days, I randomly miss you.
I hope PF doesn't see this, I'll get a scolding again. ):
9:54:00 pm
Friday, April 15, 2005
and so, sally can't wait, she knows it's too late;I still get very amazed by how some small little things and gestures can brighten up your entire day. A phone call was all it took. Seriously, no amount of words would do justice to how much I miss the little Kancheong Tan Yupei. I almost burst with excitement when I met Shuwen at the station and she told me she just met Kancheong .
Someone in school told me today that she was very sad because she thinks she has made very little friends in VJ. Her benchmark for that was the amount of friends she had on her Friendster list. I was rather amused by her random comment. I don't think you can measure friendship with mere digits on an online community. It doesn't really help if you had 5000 hi-bye friends and zero golden ones. In fact, I think that's pretty sad and you should probably go reflect on it if you find the situation familiar.
Oh well, I'm happy! Who needs MOMLs when you have all these people?
1. I met Ivy Pan today and we hanged and talked non-stop!
2. I talked to Kancheong on the phone and we're meeting soon!
3. Meeting Chengs, Huis, Flor and Kiat tomorrow!
11:02:00 pm
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
PF SAYS I'M A DESPERATE HOUSEWIFE. ):Oh well, it was quite funny actually. HAHA. This is rather random but never mind, it's so amusing. I'm gibberish. I heard cross was exciting. Damn we should have went Rachel Teo! We were slacking around eating like pigs with Steph Cheong instead. GOSH. Can't wait for tomorrow! I miss St Nics' amazing cheerleading, I miss everyone and everything in St Nics. ):
The people I miss ( in no order of merit or preference ) ;
IVY PAN ; its been more than 2 weeks ! i secretly miss our secret hangout friend!
FLORENCE LIM ; someone busy rendevous-ing with mary larrrrrr
CAI CHENG YING ; forever so busy with god knows what. i miss shopping with you! you'r the only one who doesn't make me feel guilty about spending so much money.
CHUA SIHUI ; forever so fully booked i have to book you a month in advance. i miss your tehhhhhhh-ing and KK-ness.
ONG KIAT TENG ; i miss teasing you with flor about your pornographic adventures
TAN YUPEI ; i haven't seen this stupid crocodile for GOD KNOWS HOW LONG. I MISS YOU SO MUCH YOU KNOW NOT.
CHIA RUYU ; two words: YOUR HUGS
FU SHUQI ; i wish you were here to think of sly plans for us!
and many more..
However at this point of time, I'm too engulfed in sadness to list out the rest. How I wish I could still see all of you everyday.
10:17:00 pm
Saturday, April 09, 2005
i almost had you;Musicfest 2005 was unexpectedly good. Loved the Moonwalk!
Xiaohong can do it too actually, so proud of him! But the best part was obviously my
MOML looking good. HAHA. The Performance Theatre was transformed into a gossip-breeding ground, optimum for people-watching. Rosalind Pho was looking pretty and my MOML rocks! I think people were quite annoyed that we made so much noise. OH WELL. I was happily eating my lolly away, searching for my MOML.
Current Standings on the MOML battlefield:1. PAM
2. PEIPEI
3. SAM
4. FISHBALL
As you can see, I'M LAST AT THE MOMENT?! This cannot do, I refuse to be last!
Interesting story during training today:
I swear my dad is the cutest father on earth. While swimming back to the launching area and drinking in lots of oil in the process, I spotted a Red Man on shore.
Ah Bird said, " Hey! Isn't that your father? "Upon closing in, I realised with astonishment that its
Ah Soon. HAHA. And Ah Soon was mocking me for swimming back to shore?! He's so cute lar. He's making herbal medicine for me now. He claims that its too heaty being out to sea so many times a week and its bad for your skin. My dad I <3!
9:48:00 pm
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Frankly, school is such an enjoyment nowadays, I can't wait to go to school everyday! S63 is so fun and entertaining with
Sam, Peipei, Rara, Pam, Mel, Xiaohong and
Belle! Even though we're being referred to as..
The DarkSide. :/ Haha oh well. I enjoy class everyday having EC competitions with Sam, Pei and Pam. I don't think I've ever enjoyed a rain so much,
BUBBLING around in the canteen. :DDDDDDD
Alright, I'm happy! I'm so glad everything's alright now! :DDD Though it was the end of everything for that moment.
VJ!
9:09:00 pm
Saturday, April 02, 2005
no one knows what its like;Today is undoubtedly the worst training day ever. I'm so angry that Ah Bird and I capped right at the end, we were just
this close to keeping a clean record. Everyone had so many cuts and scratches we can just mummify ourselves up. I have 10 cuts and a bruise on my hip. Rach's wound was so deep she had to go into the emergency room and do stitches.
Life sucks when its low tide. You should see what kind of pangsai they have underneath all the seawater. A few million years of accumulated rubbish isn't exactly picturesque, or sweet-smelling. Not to mention the killer rocks everywhere. SO PEK CEK SO PEK CEK SO PEK CEK! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I need a good scream.
6:26:00 pm