You can't say I'm fickle because actually I'm just downright loyal;

Sunday, May 29, 2005

HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I'm so addicted to hurrrrring my tongue is probably twisted from all the rolling here and there. It's all Xiaohong's fault, you really ought to stuff yourself in the dustbin, trying to influence me to become a lian lian just because you and jon happily pride yourselves as the beng bengs united. Anyway, I will stand firm in my stand and be together with Peipei and not join the Sam and Ra ah lians clan heehee.

Stephie is being annoying again YES YOU'R UNWANTED YOU BIMBO. But prior to her nonsense, its really queer that the whole world seems to be getting attached now. It's the let's-all-get-attached season and would somebody just marry Steph Cheong and stop her from whining non-stop to me.

hope - i am a flower quickly fading, still you hear me when i'm calling says:
i was watching disney channel, then they said "stay tunned for more OUT OF THE WORLD shows", i thought of you

`hs` everytime i close my eyes. says:
i was wathcing hi five concert advert
`hs` everytime i close my eyes. says:
then they were saying come and watch our out of the world tour
`hs` everytime i close my eyes. says:
i suddenly thought of u lor

HAHAHA omg I guess I'm just too hip and happening after all even disney channel copies me! And too lovable too everyone just can't seem to stop thinking about me HAHAHAHA.

10:56:00 pm

Saturday, May 28, 2005

I'm so sorry for being so angsty yesterday I ought to strive to be less angsty. I'm so bored this is my first Saturday spent at home this year I should have went for training but I have yet to find an appropriate hairstyle to present myself for training so I guess its okay. The June hols starts today but its not even going to be holiday-like at all there's training and tuition every single day I'm such a busy woman how is that going to be possible?! Anyway, please ask me out to somewhere where I get to wear my new clothes ( I have so many new clothes accumulated from the countless shopping trips but I'm too busy to wear them ) but you'll need to chain me to you if you'r thinking of a shopping trip. Either that or steal my wallet. I'm going to be frugal I don't care I absolutely will not buy anymore new clothes. At the rate I'm going I need a few more wardrobes to store everything.

I think I shall go take a soul vacation in my little hometown and fulfil my duties as a Woodlander.

1:24:00 pm

I'm positively seething with angst and bordering on the brink of hysteria I really must blog something down to relieve some steam even though I'm drowsy like fuck. ( I HATE BEING SICK I'VE BEEN TO THE CLINIC 3 TIMES THIS WEEK I'VE SPENT MORE THAN A HUNDRED BUCKS IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN PUT TO BETTER USE BUYING CLOTHES. ) My voice switched from hoarse to sexay and after screaming at YONG ZIRUI THE NEWLY DEMOTED COPPER FRIEND, it's been reduced to a mere croak. By the way, I'm still feeling bitter about too many random things I swear my life sucks why is God so unfair to me.

I'M SO HUNGRY MY STOMACH IS GOING CONCAVE SOON WHY IS THERE NOT EVEN A SCRAP OF FOOD IN MY HOUSE. THE ONLY THING I CAN EAT IS MY MOUNTAIN OF MEDICINE AND HERBS.

I'M SO ANGSTY I THINK SOMEBODY SHOULD JUST SHOOT ME.

12:09:00 am

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Guava makes me boil. The unidentified and unknown Edmund makes me EVAPORATE. But BUT BUT BUT BUT I'm going to be kind and magananimous and forgive them for being such bastards and p***s**s, all because PF says I HAVE A TENDER HEART. HEEHEE. You all can just stuff yourself in the dustbin and die I don't care. And I'm the most courageous girl on Earth I just drank the herb mountain that's blacker than blossom Xiaohong's going to reward me with milo with pearls HEEHEE.

Okay before I go, HEAPS AND MOUNTAINS AND TRUCKLOADS OF LUCK TO YOU MY DEAR PLATINUM FRIEND ( i have a tender heart :D ), for tomorrow's big match obviously. I'll be cheering for you in the stands after riding the waves in the Kallang river. HEEHEE secretly chitty chattying with some Justea NAH give you. Okay I'm so excited about our plan tomorrow Rach!

11:00:00 pm

Monday, May 23, 2005

and this walk that we shared together;

I want to be Cinderella I want Chad Michael Murray he's so freaking cute and sweet I hate Hilary Duff because Cockroach IDOLIZES her like a freaking p***s** and she's not even skinny and pretty I'm ranting again because unfortunately I'm pmsing I'm bleeding like nobody's business life sucks omg I seriously think I'm unacceptable I like ** ( only Vee Flor and Kiat knows and Mary and Shunhong conveniently knows too ) I'm too unacceptable to be true I think I ought to die I just got 50 for Sam's quiz she's going to peel the fishballs off me and where the hell is Chia Ruyu if you don't appear soon I'm not going to CJ tomorrow you stupid twinnie I'm having a million breakouts I think I'm growing uglier by the day WHY LIKE THAT! I think I ought to start wearing a mask whenever I step out of the house I went to see the chinese doctor today he started shaking his head the moment he saw me and his head never stayed still till the I walked out of his damn clinic he gave me so many herbs I can grow a herb mountain ITS BLOODY BLACK AND BITTER OMG YUCKS I secretly poured it all away its such a waste of money but like I care I refuse to drink that p***s** its not fit for human consumption much less for ME my current favourite shop is VideoEzy I love renting movies who wants to watch with me I'm so annoyed by myself I hope Derek remembers to bring the CJ shirt for me if not I can't see Ruru and Xuanxuan tomorrow I'll be very sad I hate school I think I should just quit school all together and be a Cinderella in my own castle.

Oh my god I can't take it anymore I'm going nuts where's PF I need some of his nonsense to curb my own nonsense he's the only one who can make me feel sane. I need to switch to your VS boy mode for awhile and TSKKKKK you and say, " you'r damn annoying you p***s**!"

9:47:00 pm

Sunday, May 22, 2005

so you stole my heart, and left me a ransom letter;

Okay firstly a BIG BIG THANK YOU HUG to everyone who asked about me and my intestines. I feel so loved. I'm feeling better already. My mum's bringing me to the chinese physician tomorrow she claims that it'll help oh well. I think I prefer an intestinal scan or something at SGH. I don't really like chinese herbs and OMG I HOPE THE DOCTOR DOESN'T TRY TO POKE ME WITH LIKE NEEDLES. I swear I'll stuff him into his own dustbin and make him roll down his own stairs. And if all else fails, oh well, I have little Florie's intestines as backup. Heehee I love little Florie she loves me too so she's giving me half of her intestines. At this moment Mary had to make his presence felt and say he misses me. ( eew ) But for Florie's sake, I'll say, Okay I miss you a bit too.

Anyway, today was a great day out with Vee and a few short moments with her wafflesians. We bought many things ( as usual, anyway it was on sale we're trying to save money here you know ) and any day with Vee is a great day anyway. OH and I deposited money into my account HEEHEE I'm so frugal! ( unlike Xiaohong he actually dared to scold me for buying things when he bought boardshorts for himself when he's supposed to be buying presents ) We met lots of people like **C and I was quite happy but Vee couldn't accept **C OH WELL. Oh and Sam we met your l***r Mat****s HAHAHAH. ( i hope he doesn't see this but i think he will )

Okay Ru I promise on tuesday I'm going CJ to sit at the grandstand and have a chitty chatty talk with you. I'm going to look like some p***s** ( pf forbid me to say the word so its censored ) wearing Derek's oversized shirt. Sometimes I think I'm too nice to be true.

By the way, YONG ZIRUI YOU OUGHT TO STUFF YOURSELF IN THE DUSTBIN AND DIE HOW CAN YOU GET 50 FOR MY QUIZ YOU P***S** ! Please go to the temple and pray and atone for your sins ( you call yourself my platinum friend ) its vesak day anyway.

Oh and by the way by the way, I hate you Edmund from VS in NYJC now you are truly the biggest asshole I've ever met. ( the most ridiculous thing is I haven't even met you ) you made me fall out with Guava, you go around telling people all about me and Vee when we didn't even know you existed ( i suspect you'v been stalking us all along ) I hope you rot and die in a rubbish bin.

OH and to everybody who links me: PLEASE TAKE MY LINK OFF IMMEDIATELY. For the last time, I do not like people to link me. Please don't force me to move. Alright thank you very much.

10:43:00 pm

Saturday, May 21, 2005

I just vomited again, for the millionth time. This isn't a joke I swear. I'm so scared now its not even funny. Cassandra came into my mind, for an apparent reason. She was my Sec 3 classmate. She passed away due to intestinal problems. I'm really scared. I want to go hospital to do a check up. I don't want to die. Initially I thought it was just the old ailment returning. But it doesn't seem like it, now I'm constantly vomiting and having diarrhea. OMG I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DIE. ):

I haven't apologized to Wu Juan and Wanjing for falling out with them. I haven't atoned for all my sins for cheating and lying all my life. I haven't ice skated without getting my hands off the support handles. I haven't played TENNIS. I haven't made my first million dollars. I haven't apologized to Guava and tell him everything that happened between Cockroach and me. I haven't met Cockroach personally and apologize to her. I haven't kayaked in the nationals and win the gold medal. I haven't been to the Eiffel Tower. I haven't tried wakeboarding. I haven't told Steph that she's not a tofu and she's so bloody tanned. I haven't told Ivy how small her face actually is and how much she really means to me. I haven't told Yupei I miss her crocodile face like pangsai. I haven't told Ah Bird what an amazing partner she is. I haven't told Rach actually she has a mind of her own. I haven't told Shushu to stop biting her nails in so long and she's going to win the tennis championship next year. I haven't told the Nickys I'M SO THANKFUL FOR ALL OF YOU. I haven't told Flor she's my skinniest beloved white golden. I haven't told Kiat she's the hottest and her teeth is so cute. I haven't told Huis she'll always be my one and only wife. I haven't told Chengs how bloody hot her ass is and actually we secretly ogle at her ass everytime. I haven't hugged Ru in so long and I'm secretly tearing while talking to you dear. I haven't told Sam how much I really like her even though her eyebrows are so wierd. I haven't told Peipei actually her hair is damn bloody nice. I haven't told Xiaohong I secretly think he's very nice. I haven't told Pam actually she's not pau-y at all. I haven't told Ra I went around telling people she's the prom queen and she's my friend. I haven't told Mel he's actually very macho even though he uses his little hankie. I haven't told the Jiemei gang that they'r the only reason I go to school for. I haven't told PF how thankful I am for him and how wonderful he is. I haven't told the kayak team WE CAN MAKE IT! I haven't told everyone what my cca was last time. I haven't told St Nics how much I love you. I haven't told so many people so many things.

I CAN'T DIE RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW. I REFUSE TO I REFUSE TO I REFUSE TO.

10:11:00 pm

Thursday, May 19, 2005

my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me;

I've been sleeping my life away ever since I woke up at 10 to give the doctor a visit. I hate my intestines JAFSDKLFJASLFJLASJLJSDLJFLSJF. Why can't you just function normally for once and let me live in peace and stop making me vomit?! I was scared out of my wits yesterday when I started vomiting at Novena Sqaure I thought I was going to die and it was even worse than the other times in school because if I died right there nobody would have even know maybe except for the toilet auntie and she's not even as hip as our school's toilet auntie. ( she drinks absolute and wears gucci shades ) I managed to drag myself out of that damn place and take a cab home. ( BECAUSE MY DAD SAID HE WAS WORKING AND HE REFUSED TO FETCH ME. WTH I'M HIS DAUGHTER AND I'M DYING?! ) and I woke up in the middle of the night with my forehead as hot as RA's figure ( btw, please buy june seventeen and support Clara Tan and Wanhua ) and I vomited so many times I lost count.

The doctor gave me 3 days MC but I insist on going school tomorrow because I know jiemei gang can't live without me. HEEHEE. I know you all missed me today don't try to deny. I've been getting updates on school even though I was at Woodlands 237489373 miles away from Marine Parade. I hope Xiaohong and Sam have been civil to each other in my absence.

Anyway, I've decided to crown Peipei the Golden Jiemei of the month! Sam you'r unforgivable lor how can you get the guava question wrong that's like so easy?!

8:57:00 pm

Sunday, May 15, 2005

I WAS SO ANGSTY THAT I DIDN'T GET FULL MARKS FOR DIAMOND FRIEND VEEVEE'S QUIZ I DECIDED TO HAVE ONE OF MY OWN.

IT IS COMPULSORY AND IMPERATIVE FOR YOU TO TAKE THE QUIZ IF YOU ARE THE BELOW:

PLATINUM FRIEND
DIAMOND FRIEND
GOLDEN FRIENDS:
flor
kiat
chengs
huis
nickys roots
jiemei gang

which are the only people who are SUPPOSED to have the link to this blog. ( XIAOHONG you ought to stuff yourself in the dustbin at this point of time ) Anyway if you are the above and you get below 70 marks for the quiz please roll down the stairs THANKS. If you aren't, its okay you'll have a reward if you get 70 and above. OKAY START!

START !

11:08:00 pm

Saturday, May 14, 2005

and you, doing that thing you do;

I'm a happy fishball today! :D Firstly, I woke up feeling rather miserable about training since it was 6 am in in the morning but PF totally rocks, seriously like OMG PF YOU ROCK LAR! I guess since I was in such a good mood training was good too. We went to the nice gym totally drenched, all because Leonard and Li Seng refused to listen to us when we told them it was going to rain. ( the sky was even blacker than me?! ) Went down for water after that and I was feeling so proud of Ah Bird and myself. HELLO, WE DID 5K WITHOUT CAPPING? HEEHEE! The best part has yet to come. I officially declare PS Flash my favourite of all time. Rachel Teo, Steph Cheong and I just went crazy in there and we almost attempted to buy everything in the shop. Hence, Monday is going to be New Bag Day again. Our attempt at frugality is like so not working. ( the last New Bag Day was about a month ago ) But its okay, I'm so happy I made such a good buy I love my new wallet. But I'm so sad I have no money anymore I'm a poor girl I think I ought to die I just bought my polka dot wallet a week ago I have 3 new wallets now. I'm such a spendthrift I feel so sad for my mum. I love our J1 kayak team! We're so united we all wore house tees and attempted to go for sports day after training. But we're short of Draco and Pegasus so Leonard and Li Seng are going to join us next week!

Anyway, this is to PF:

No matter how botak and annoying you are, you'll always be my one and only platinum friend too! Cheers and <3! HEEHEE. I feel like drinking JUSTEA. NAH give you! ( it's a Qiu Hong joke ) HAHAHAHA. I'm sorry I happen to think that its quite funny.

FRUGALITY IS THE THING.

9:56:00 pm

Friday, May 13, 2005

so you stole my heart, and left me a ransom letter;

I'm so tired I'm so tired I'm so tired I'm so tired and when I'm tired I do lots of random things like playing the piano for two hours and yes I can play the piano I'm Grade 6 excuse me. I'm so tired I'm starting to moodswing I wanna drink banana milkshake I feel like talking to PF randomly I don't wanna go training my muscles are aching I'm addicted to Ransom Letter I can't seem to stop listening to it my phone is spoilt it keeps cutting off people halfway I'm so annoyed but I refuse to change phone its too important to me and I'm drinking guava juice OMG I'm so black I'm becoming like an AN and I wish everyone would just stop exclaiming how black I am whenever they see me and I'm getting so muscular I don't want to be like Meatball and Blubb and Tree Trunk ! )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

THIS ENTRY IS TOO RANDOM TO BE TRUE SO PLEASE PARDON ME THANKS.

11:21:00 pm

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

when everything feels like the movies, yea you'd bleed just to know you'r alive;

I DESPERATELY NEED TO TALK TO SOMEBODY SANE AND NON-GOSSIPY AND LAME AND EVERYTHING THAT EVERYONE AROUND ME ISN'T. Someone out of VICTORIA JUNIOR COLLEGE too. Okay, make that someone out of this world. Heehee MIC seems like a good choice but oh, he doesn't fit the last criteria. Oh well, it doesn't matter. Anyway back to the point, I AM SO PEK CEK about this whole incident I wish I was Scientist or somebody at least I wouldn't be involved in it. Okay that was bad, I do not wish I was Scientist. But anyway, I don't even understand why I'm like involved in this I'm not even in the picture and all I did was like Bubbles and the worst thing is I don't even like Bubbles anymore. This is getting from bad to worse I'm ranting my head off but I don't care and I secretly hope Xiaohong is not going to call me anymore because he says Jackfruit wants to talk to me and I don't want to talk to Jackfruit obviously I don't even know him and I secretly pity Bubbles he's the victim and Jackfruit too and AHHHHHH.

At this moment, I resent the world for being so small. Why does everyone have to be good friends with everyone else?! Things would be so much simpler if we were all strangers.

I secretly think Cockroach is annoyed with me. HEEHEE.

9:37:00 pm

Sunday, May 08, 2005

IF YOU CAN'T HAVE WHAT YOU LIKE, THEN LIKE WHAT YOU HAVE NOW ALRIGHT

I'm secretly rather angsty I have no idea why. I think we're having too many codewords for fuck's sake. And the reason why we're having so many codewords is because there are too many things going on for my liking. Life in VJ is just too happening I wish I lived in a cave. School seems to be a live breeding ground for gossips and there are so many around I don't even feel like gossiping anymore. After 4 years in St Nics I'm already accustomed to the one-huge-gossip-per-month-for-us-to-gossip-about-during-recess routine, not the VJ many-gossips-at-a-time-we-must-choose-which-one-to-gossip-about-because-break-is-only-35-minutes trend. And people actually accuse St Nics girls for being bitchy and gossipy. GOSH. Please take a look at yourself first before saying that. The gossips in VJ are too rampant for simple girls like us please.

ANYWAY OMG SAM WHERE ARE YOU I NEED TO DISCUSS THINGS WITH YOU!

10:06:00 pm

she knows its too late;

I seriously wish I had a GUAVA detector so I wouldn't be so traumatised everytime I bump into him. It was so out of the blue today I nearly had a heart attack and fainted in town. Even Rachel Teo was shocked out of her wits. The worst thing was that Guava had to be looking so good and cute and I had to be wearing VJ pe shirt and looking like pangsai after training. Of all times, I had to meet him after training, the worst moment of my life. GRRRRRR. Angsty I was but I calmed down reasonably after having a long talk with Rachel Teo. RACHEL TEO I <3> you!

I've always believed that God is fair. I believe that when God gives you something good, he takes away something from you. Similarly, when God throws you something horrible, he gives you something good in return. Evidence: God let me win 50 bucks in mahjong after traumatising me with Guava. HEEHEE. Finally I have some money to deposit into my cashless bank account.

Anyway, tomorrow is Mother's Day and Mummy I love you! Though you'll never read this.

Anyway anyway, PEA EFF WHERE ART THOU?!

12:25:00 am

Friday, May 06, 2005

i want you and your beautiful soul;

This is undoubtedly the worst day of my life. Oh my god it was so bad I don't even want to talk about it anymore. I don't think I've ever felt so bad in VJ before. I can't believe I secretly started tearing before 2.4. My heart just sank right to the bottom of the universe after Yueting came into the toilet and told us our PW groups. And 13.18 is just not good enough for me. GRRRR. I'm so pissed at myself for not pushing harder. ITS ONLY 18 SECONDS.

Please do not ever again deal so many blows to me all at one shot. My heart is very weak, I'm not kidding.

Fortunately, I made it through the day, all thanks to:

1. THE JIEMEI GANG! Sam deserves credit, she even tried to be bitter too to accompany me in wallowing in bitterness.
2. THE NICKYS! HEEHEE. My mood improved tremendously after laughing our asses off in the canteen, and after our people-mocking session at yoshi.
3. PF! I felt much better after writing the long letter ( with my favourite peach-scented pink pen ) complaining about everything. I can't wait to discuss with you! HEEHEE.
4. EYEVEE! I'm always happy to see Veevee. HAHA. I have a sudden urge to call you VEEVEE I don't know why.

By the way, I'm attempting to be colourful to cheer myself up. And by the way, LYCHEE SUCKS. ( pangsai colour for lychee )

11:24:00 pm

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

and so i have to say before i go;

This is the 4th time I've thrown up in school. It was so bad today I felt so weak after throwing up I didn't even have the energy to walk out of the toilet. The Jiemei gang so happily walked away without waiting for me luckily I met Steph Cheong and Shuwen outside the toilet. I felt like dying and I almost died. I'm constantly worried that I'll just die throwing up in the school toilets one day. Or maybe from lack of blood. Yay, I'm so lucky I have so many ways to choose to die from.

Or maybe I'll fall to my death into the fishpond. I still can't believe Ashwin did that to me today. Ra, Pam and I were happily mocking those people who were being dunked into the fishpond when Ashwin the Asshole just came up from behind and gave me a shove. I got the shock of my life and almost screamed the loft down. And the only thing he said after that was, " Fishball and Fishpond about the same what. "

For some wierd and twisted reason, the KL trip flashed through my mind while I was throwing up. The train ride, Daytooooona, Tomahawk, nightly ( alcoholic ) gatherings in Room 1516 and everything little thing that happened. The incident where I almost died under the SUV's wheel came back particularly strong. I remember how you stood by my side, how you held my hand when I was crying, how you were there to assure me that everything was alright.

PF! How I miss the KL days. Let's go again okay?

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

What a horrible day.

5:38:00 pm

Monday, May 02, 2005

its all about you baby;

I'm a happy girl today! :D I finished my PI! ( YAYY! ) I bought 2 tops and a skirt! ( YAY YAYY! ) with little Florie! ( YAY YAY YAYY! ) HEEHEE. I love shopping with little Florie. We've decided that I like green and she likes brown! So I'm going to be the leaves and she's the trunk and she'll support me! ( LITERALLY, heehee private joke ) and together we form a tree. Alright, I get very tickled by that so pardon me. But secretly I'm so scared inside that my mum is so going to kill me when she updates my bank book. ): Did I ever tell you my permanent wish is that money will drop down from the sky to me?

Little Florie says my new black and white ribbon wedges are nice. HEEHEE. That's because I bought it with little Eye Vee. :D I <3 my new shoes.

I'm going out with Jiemei gang tomorrow and I'm secretly going to be the green sistazzzz with little SamLee. HEEHEE. I can't wait! :DDDDDDD

12:38:00 am